Changes

On Change:  A video about Addiction by Ilana Simons

https://vimeo.com/124465273

My thoughts on this "story video" are /in progress\  

As with all change, it's a progression…

A life changing progression  

Addiction, can it also mean obsession?

Drink one, drink two

stop, stop!

The stop light turns red

I wait for you

The drink goes untouched

The wait becomes too much

I step off the curb

A honking car is heard

Wait, yells a voice in my head

Too late, she’s dead

Drink number three removes the body from self,

outside of self are the city streets, racing cars, honking, blaring noisy cars to dare you, to dare you to step off the curb, into the lane of self destruction.

 

Listen, not to yourself, but to the street’s taunt. Listen.  Wait.

Do you really want to step off the curb?  
Wait, before it’s too late.

Freeze the frame

What is your aim?

I step into traffic, a car grazes my thigh….brushed aside, I stumble.

Who cares, I’ll do it again, I’m not in trouble.

The noise is deafening….a defining moment, I hurt.

I step back to the curb, again, this time with blood on my shirt.

I sit  

I wait

I’m thrown out of the bar

I go back to my car

In city streets, I honk my horn

I look down at my pants, the seam is torn

Blood marks this day of atonement

Self destruction rendered nil at this moment

Back up, park, wait

before it’s too late

The tiger sleeps, I miss you

I miss the dreams that have become so few

The heart waits….then moves on

Knowing today you are gone